I must admit my fear of losing control causes me to strive and micromanage my time, activities, and even my emotions, at times. Honestly, it’s quite exhausting. So why do I still do it?
When I take an honest look at this tendency, it exposes my simple lack of trust in God – in His ability to handle everything that comes my way. It’s not my ability that matters, but His. If I am fully trusting God, I am not relying on my own strength. I’m letting Him take the reins over my heart, life, and mind. Can you relate?
Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
God calls us to trust Him and to not lean on our own strength. Then, when we acknowledge Him in all our ways, he makes our paths straight. Perhaps this concept seems easier when things are going well. But what about when things get tough?
But, slowly, I am moving toward letting go and trusting. It’s a journey, though, isn’t it, my friend? I’d sometimes like life to hurry up and my struggles go away. But part of the beauty of life is this tension we live in here on Earth until we go to our final home. God promises that we will have struggles on this side of heaven. So, I have a choice. I can let it be miserable, or I can let it be a beautiful unfolding – a beautiful unfolding of events and emotions. I can choose to accept and embrace the good, the bad, and the ugly. Through acceptance, I am learning to trust God more fully and embrace the ups and downs of life more willingly. In regards to my mental health, I am trusting His process of healing instead of trying to figure it out on my own. How freeing! To let go of the striving and rest in His love. Someone once told me rest is trust – I believe that is true because you can rest when you are trusting Someone bigger than yourself to take care of you.
Today, I choose trust over worry and control. Today, I chose Jesus rather than myself. Today, I am ready and willing to trust.
Copyright 2020 Marie Lorah