Who are you really depending on for strength everyday? My answer to this question recently was a vulnerable one: me, myself, and I. Ouch.
I’ve trusted God for some things, and I have given Him some of my time, energy, and resources. I’ve moved closer to Him this year, I think. But have I really given it all to Him? What would that look like?
In my walk with God, I continue to realize how much I default to self-reliance and dependence. Somehow, it feels safer, even though God is SO much safer and reliable. And since I rely on myself, I strive to be perfect, which is exhausting! So, who’s kingdom am a I living in when I walk in this perfectionism and self-reliance? The answer to this question is yet again: mine. My kingdom. I want my kingdom to unfold MY way, so I will trust only in myself to get this right.
But, God’s kingdom is not like that.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust Him with all your heart, and in all your ways, submit to Him. He desires all of us. Every part. Imperfect, fragile, insecure. Every part of our heart He wants access to. I’m not saying that this happens overnight or that we really are able to give Him everything in our humanity. Rather, accept this invitation to give Him your heart. Let HIM make your paths straight. Depend on HIM for strength and nourishment each day. Let His presence and His Word feed your soul.
It’s not up to you and your own strength to manage your life. Turn your affection toward Him today and ask Him to help you let go of self-sufficiency and learn to depend on Him. Trust me. He will help you and lead you.
“‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.” Zechariah 4:6