Who are you really depending on for strength everyday? My answer to this question recently was a vulnerable one: me, myself, and I. Ouch.
I’ve trusted God for some things, and I have given Him some of my time, energy, and resources. I’ve moved closer to Him this year, I think. But have I really given it all to Him? What would that look like?
In my walk with God, I continue to realize how much I default to self-reliance and dependence. Somehow, it feels safer, even though God is SO much safer and reliable. And since I rely on myself, I strive to be perfect, which is exhausting! So, who’s kingdom am a I living in when I walk in this perfectionism and self-reliance? The answer to this question is yet again: mine. My kingdom. I want my kingdom to unfold MY way, so I will trust only in myself to get this right.
But, God’s kingdom is not like that.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust Him with all your heart, and in all your ways, submit to Him. He desires all of us. Every part. Imperfect, fragile, insecure. Every part of our heart He wants access to. I’m not saying that this happens overnight or that we really are able to give Him everything in our humanity. Rather, accept this invitation to give Him your heart. Let HIM make your paths straight. Depend on HIM for strength and nourishment each day. Let His presence and His Word feed your soul.
It’s not up to you and your own strength to manage your life. Turn your affection toward Him today and ask Him to help you let go of self-sufficiency and learn to depend on Him. Trust me. He will help you and lead you.
“‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.” Zechariah 4:6
Sometimes, life is overwhelming, and we need to step back and take stock of all that’s going on in life and reorder our priorities. Recently, I felt the Lord convict me of striving too much in my mental health recovery. I was focusing on fixing myself instead of fixing my eyes on Him and His presence. I need His presence over everything else – any treatment, therapy session, friend, or self-help book. As I’ve started to make this change, I have felt so much more peace, rest, and hope. I have connected with the One who fills me and helps me make sense of everything in life. Never forget where your strength and your source lies – His presence and His Word. It’s in that place you find wisdom and direction for the practicalities of life.
Lord, help me to keep Your presence first and trust in You to take care of me in all areas of my life.
God gave me the theme of single mindedness this year – focusing on Him and keeping Him first. He wants me to simplify, slow down, and stay there. I have found some progress in this area, but the “staying there” part is hard! Distractions keep pulling me away – or I start searching in vain for the next “best thing” that will make my life better or fix it somehow. I must chose to remember that I already have enough. I have Jesus living on the inside of me. The closer I stay to Him and that truth, the closer I will stay to what He is calling me to do: Simplify, slow down, and stay there.
What is God calling you to do right now? Slow down to listen, obey, and then make the choice to stay in it…as long as it takes.