It is with great sadness I must share that my beloved pet, friend, and baby boy, Sam, passed away this past Saturday afternoon. Friday night he began acting restless, then getting sick. We found out on Saturday morning he had hypothermia, an inoperable mass on his liver, and fluid in his abdomen. He became weak very quickly. We were able to take him home to hold him a few hours before we made the heart wrenching decision to put him down. I love you, Sam. We lost you too soon and will always miss you.
How do I understand the depth of my loss
And all it cost
My heart is heavy
Yet You keep me steady
My life has meaning, this pain has purpose.
You say, “Keep going. Don’t give up”
I lean in as You give me strength. Air to breathe.
You give me breath and life. Hope and help.
Be my breath, my life, Lord. Be my hope and help.
The Lord is my Pacemaker
The Lord is my pacemaker – I shall not rush.
He makes me stop and rest for quiet intervals:
He provides me with images of stillness,
Which restore my serenity.
He leads me in ways of efficiency
Through calmness of mind, and His guidance is peace.
Even though I have a great many things
To accomplish each day, I will not fret –
for His Presence is here:
His timelessness, His importance will keep me in balance.
He prepares refreshment and renewal
In the midst of my activity,
By anointing my mind with his oils of tranquility.
My cup of joyous energy overflows.
Surely harmony and effectiveness
Shall be the fruits of my hours;
For I shall walk in His house forever.
A Version of the 23rd Psalm
by Toki Miyashin
God gave me the theme of single mindedness this year – focusing on Him and keeping Him first. He wants me to simplify, slow down, and stay there. I have found some progress in this area, but the “staying there” part is hard! Distractions keep pulling me away – or I start searching in vain for the next “best thing” that will make my life better or fix it somehow. I must chose to remember that I already have enough. I have Jesus living on the inside of me. The closer I stay to Him and that truth, the closer I will stay to what He is calling me to do: Simplify, slow down, and stay there.
What is God calling you to do right now? Slow down to listen, obey, and then make the choice to stay in it…as long as it takes.
I have the above saying on an index card on my bathroom mirror. When I get thrown some negative experience or I am struggling with depression, I sometimes feel hopelessness creep in. When I start to feel hopeless, I start to believe that my situation is, in fact, hopeless. We must remember in our life and recovery that feelings are not facts.
Emotional reasoning is a common cognitive distortion that says “if it feels true, then it must be true.” For me, hopelessness is a place that I can still sometimes default to after a negative experience or during a depressive episode. Simply having this reminder on my bathroom mirror is such a great reminder for those moments that there is, and always will be, hope. That hope is anchored deeply and securely in Jesus Christ.
May you experience God’s hope today no matter what you are facing.
Always wanting to do more. More work. More friends. More activities. More commitments. More health and healing. More time with God. More. When is “more” enough? When will “more” ever be enough? How can I enjoy life now if I never have/am doing enough? What would it take to let go? What would happen if I let go, actively trusting God to give me the true more that I need? What is the true more?
As I ponder this question, that true more comes in satisfaction in Christ, what He has given me already, and who He says I am. Not the stuff, activities, or what I do.
I have come far enough. I have put enough in place in my life. I am healed enough. I have done enough. More life will come. But the time is not now for that “more.”
“More” productivity, success, goals, activities, achievements. Now is the time to rest. To celebrate. To breath. To soak in God’s goodness and presence. Discover. Create. Fellowship. Let go. Surrender. Let in God’s love and blessings – see and appreciate all that He has already given you. HE has more for me and you – and that’s the more I want to be after. The rest comes into place. Trust HIS process, not the frantic process of this world.
God, please show us the more that You have for us now. Thank You that You are working behind the scenes to bring forth our desires and dreams. Today, help us to see the blessings and answers to prayers You have already given us. Thank You for “the more” we have in You.
My heart wants to create. My mind wants to escape.
My heart cries to come alive. My mind seeks to shut down, to die.
My heart is meant to connect with the Creator. The only common denominator.
Heart, come alive. Heart, live. Heart, be nourished. Delight in the Creator.
Heart, seek out. Heart, don’t doubt.
Hear the Creator shout. Victory over you.
Come, meet Him in the Upper Room. It’s an invitation of what you long to do.
The flesh must come and die, so the heart can come and dine – and stay alive.