Have you ever had the sense of what would be good for you to do but you lacked the motivation to do it? I experience this phenonmenon on and off, especially with my struggle with depression. Just this past week, I woke up and felt tired, unmotivated, and a little depressed. I knew if I pressed through that I could have a good day spent with God through doing things like jouraling, art, and worship. At this point I had a choice. Would I let my feelings keep me from pressing through, or would I press through my feelings?
We all have decision points like this one, probably on a regular basis at varying degrees. At the least severe, we just generally don’t feel like doing something (like going to the gym), but we do it anyway. At a more moderate level, we have a mental and perhaps physical resistance to doing what we know would be good for us (i.e., getting out of bed to starting the day), so we delay it. At a severe level, someone is so depressed than can hardly get themselves to do anything. I would argue that there are times, at least in my experience, where I surrender to the fact that I am not going to get much (if anything) done that day. I give myself grace on those days, and I hope you do too.
However, a lot of the time we are in that middle ground, where we could move in the direction of a healthy decision if we pushed ourselves a bit. This space was where I found myself one day last week. I wanted to get up, go into my office and spend the day journaling, creating, and spending time with God. I laid in bed thinking about it, finally deciding to get up and make my tea. I got into my office, still very tired and a little depressed. I thought about going back to bed. But I decided to press through to see what happened. And as I pushed through, my energy and motivation increased. It turned out to be a great day!
So, on those hard days, give yourself some grace and press through that lack of motivation. It might just turn into a great day.
Copyright 2020 Marie Lorah