Roots from a tree can only grow deep if they are planted by the water and given the proper nutrients. As Believers, we must be intentional in planting ourselves by things that give us life. Having more of God often means having less of other things. Sometimes, desiring more of Him can permit Him to remove comforts and things in our life that we lean on more than Him. We enter the Kingdom through many trials and tribulations.
Just as I have begun to grasp and embrace the challenges of being here in this season, some of the same questions were back in my face again this week. Just over a week ago, I had a car accident that demolished my car. Tuesday, I went into an interview expecting an open door to work with a non-profit organization I was hoping to plug into, but I found out that no paid positions are available. Doors closed. Provision, uncertain. Direction, little to be seen! I wish I could say that I responded to these situations in perfect peace, but I have had quite a battle this week. Yet in all of this, I see Him growing me in love and trust. He’s been asking me the question, “Am I enough?” I have said, “Yes, Lord, You are enough!” Well this conviction is being tested in my heart right now through these circumstances. Is He enough when I don’t have the convenience of a car or the comfort and security of the future? While I know these things logically to be true, my faith is being tested experientially through these circumstances. All I can do now is intentionally plant myself by the river, lean on Christ, asking for truth and guidance. As I position my heart to hear from Him and not turn away in disappointment, I know He will speak and make my path straight.
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”
-No injury to either party in accident
-Looking forward to a pleasant visit home to PA to see family in December
-I’ve been extremely blessed by my new friends out here in KC
-Healing from the trauma of the accident
-Provision for car and living expenses
-Wisdom and direction
-Peace for family members who have had various stressors and difficulties