Monthly Archives: August 2013

Letting Go of Myself and Holding Onto Jesus

I can barely believe I am over half way finished this 3 month internship. Time has gone so fast, yet I feel as though so much has been shifted and stirred in my heart. I feel as though the Lord is restoring the joy of my salvation and restoring my intimacy with Him. He’s reminded me of His purpose for me, and even of my suffering—I was created to enjoy Him, and help others come into that relationship and enjoyment with Him. In this manner, I partner with Him in prayer for others.

The Christian walk isn’t meant to one filled with drudgery and agony. It is an exciting journey of growing closer to Him and drawing others to Him. We certainly do have our peaks and valleys, but it is only through this process that we learn to trust the Lord and really get to know His heart for us. In spite of the intense pruning of my heart—as God is removing the things in my heart that hinder my love for Him, I feel as though I see God and myself clearer. I am inspired about His goodness and faithfulness. He’s showing me that the cross we carry now will actually help us cross the difficulties that come later in life. God’s reminding me to not despise this season of learning to carry my cross and follow Him. He’s helping me to embrace my times of pain instead of fight them.

Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. James 1:2

Praise and Prayer

I praise God that He has brought me to this place of prayer and intimacy with Him. I honestly never thought I’d actually get to move out of here and be a part of this prayer movement—I saw it as a dream that would never actually come to pass because somehow I was not worthy enough to be here. God is SO much bigger than what we can imagine and fathom!

Please pray that I would continue to surrender and submit everything in my life to God’s leadership. He’s been slowly helping me release some things of my past that I still hold on to, and I want to continue to find Him in the midst of questions that my heart has in relation to suffering.